Prolonged Goodbye

A long time coming

Summer rain

Torridly rapping on my hidden pain

Soaked frame

Vividly recalling the day

When I first began to noticed your disdain

Undeserved for me alone to claim

Walking vs. running away

My blurred heart now just a figure of clay

Molded for you to prey

In the place where I found comfort to lay

Pores of love frayed

The sweetness where I fell strayed

My eternity without you not the same

Been almost two decades in this chase

Our Codependent game

Now I am too damn afraid

To stay

To go the other way

My departure made plain

You would even call my name

Now betrayed

By your intentional non attachment to me displayed

For the world and my denial to see

How you instinctively used my emotions to play

And I in need of validation continually gave

Took a back seat, ignored even when love felt like hate

You talked to me in such a damning way

Caused internal bleeding and much dismay

Finally prolonged goodbye is here where I stand

Walking away

Whole in the pouring rain